Dear TT,
Wow. 8 weeks have flown by and it's hard to imagine our lives before you were here. You're starting to have longer stretches of time where you are awake and I swear, baby girl, I melt every time you smile at me. Like, I'm a completely melted, goopy, puddle of a mommy. I can barely function.
I mean, seriously!!
You are such a beautiful baby. I know everyone thinks that about their babies but I don't care, you are gorgeous. Your eyes are still an icey blue and it's no secret that I REALLY hope they stay light. I love your Daddy's dark brown eyes and your sister's light brown/hazel eyes but I really love my blue/green/grey eyes and who doesn't want their babies to look like them? I have no shame in wanting my baby's eyes to look like mine. 🙂
When you're not smiling and melting Mommy into puddles you are putting us through our paces around here. You require constant motion when you're awake and trying to fall asleep so we spend a LOT of time walking the hallway with you and bouncing on the yoga ball. We sing, we pat your back, we sway, we walk, we walk, we walk. Sometimes it takes just a few minutes, sometimes it takes an hour. Sometimes we out you down and you stay asleep but usually you either wakeup as we set you down or a few minutes later. So, it's a process. The word on the street is that you will grow out of this in another month or so. We have our fingers crossed!
For now, I'm enjoying the feeling of you snuggled up under my chin. All 12+ pounds of you, chunky girl. You relax almost immediately when I sing to you, and that makes me feel so special. Your sister wasn't like that. She couldn't have cared less about my singing, haha. She also didn't make me work as hard. I knew going into this that you were going to be a completely different person than Q so it's fun to see your personality emerge, even when certain traits are making my life more difficult. 🙂
Hello tangent! Anyhow, what I've learned about you is that you are a bit more sensitive of a child than Q was, and that's ok. The great news for you is that this isn't my first rodeo and I know exactly what to do to help you. I've thought a lot about what it would have been like to have had you first and to have had unlimited amounts of time to spend on you. But you know what? I think that you really were meant to come when you did. You need the experience, calm and patient mommy that Q created. You need the perfect swaddle and the perfect sway and my ability to stay calm when you've been screaming for 45 minutes straight. So, I'm glad we have each other and glad that we are such a good fit.
I can't get enough of these snuggles.
So, thanks for bearing with me and my rambling. I don't want to forget these days. Things change so fast and I'm going to wake up one day and you're going to be a kid and these days will be long gone. You were a missing piece of this family, and maybe the final piece. That remains to be seen. But for now, I'm so happy to have you here with us every day. We couldn't love you any more.
Happy 8 weeks, TT. We love you the mostest.
Forever yours,
Mommy